God's will

Have you ever wondered what your life would like if you had done things differently? What would you be doing if you'd gotten a different college degree? What would life be like if you married someone else? On and on.

I often ask myself questions like these. What would my life be like if the trauma hadn't happened? Would I have gone to college/university? Would I enjoy dance the way I do? Would I be as close as I am to my family, both immediate and extended? Would I have the time I have to spend with my 10 year old sister? Would she even know me?

The reality is I have a handicap. I'm in a wheelchair. God has allowed this to happen for a purpose. We do not know what His exact purpose is, but I am content. I have a wonderful family, I have had and have fabulous workers, I have been given remarkable opportunities with work including being chosen to choreograph a dance that had it's first showing last Spring. (See A Choreographer's Story for details on this.)

The things that I am doing now, the people that are in my life now; they may never have been a part of my life had the trauma I had at 14 months old never happened. God allowed this to happen to me for a reason, His Reason. Even though it is hard sometimes to need as much help as I do to do the simplest tasks such as making food or even cutting it up; these things that  I can't do, or at least can't do very well, don't really bother me. I have seen God use my disability to put me in the places He wants me to be, so I can be who He wants me to be, to the people He brings me in contact with.

I believe it's ok to sometimes ask questions, but if we let those questions consume us, we might miss something important. Life is a gift. I want to use mine doing the things God wants, touching the people He wants me to touch, reaching out with His arms to those that don't yet know Him.



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  1. Chuck20 September 2014 at 09:43

    Monica, thank you for once again bringing fresh perspective to life. Contentment is such a rare thing these days. I love that you can have questions without allowing them to keep you from moving forward and embracing all that you were created for. Once again you've inspired me. Thank you. ~Chuck

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